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My name is Shawn ~ I am born in the year of tiger ~ I am a Leo ~ I am a singing freak ~ I am a nice guy ~ I am currently undergoing Diploma in international business ~ I dislike backstabber ~ I dislike myself ~ I dislike stalker ~ I like clubbing ~ I like my things ~ I love my family ~ I love her
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Thursday, August 26, 2010
/ Pethetic life
I found that nowadays I am very sensitive for something that does with money! I am not like before, where I find money is not the main concern to me. But now, no matter how much I earn per month, it is never enough! Unlike before, I earn less but I don’t feel any uneasy/ I don’t feel anything missing. Well, everything is different now. I need money now, I need it so desperately. Last time my whole family is working except for my brother that’s still studying, we are not short of money. Now, my dad is sick, he got stroke 2 years back and now half of his body is not functioning well. He can’t walk, can’t move on his right side and he needs a domestic helper to help him on whatever he does. Now, at least he is still okay, at least he can visit the toilet by himself without any support. Still we need a helper to look after him at home. My mum is sick as well, her illness came back after decade and yet she is still working so hard to support the family. Me as the eldest child of the family, seeing my mum working so hard to support the family, I think I ought to do something to help her support the family as well. I don’t understand, just don’t understand. Why some people cannot understand my situation now. They are just those people with no burden and yet free to do whatever they like. They just couldn’t understand the situation I am in now! I work so hard for what? I don’t get much back even though I am earning more then maybe you earned! No matter how much I earn, I guess it’s just not enough. Pay day for people like you may be happy but not for me, once it reach pay day, my worries start to come. How can I overcome it? I need to pay for my domestic helper and some household stuff. Can anyone understand me? LOL. Bear this is mind! Don’t keep going against me because I don’t study or I don’t intend to study. I am not like you who have the money to complete your degree! I am not that much fortunate like you, so treasure what you have now! Sigh… Who is that person who asks me to study in mdis and cause me so much trouble now! That school sucks okay, make my life more miserable! You know who you are! Worst is after I enrolled into that school, you tel me that “yeah, the management is kinda suck but I still can study till I completed my degree! Look, you is you not me! Your course and my course are different and we are not in the same course anyway! Your coordinate maybe be good but not mine alright! Also, you thought you are perfect? My foot! You are not any perfect, you are just like us, the normal people okay! Look how you look at people, please be more mercy! You suck!
Sometime I am rather disappointed, life just seems to be so pathetic to me! I just can’t stop working, can’t stop! If I stop I can’t imagine how pathetic I am going to be! Save me if you hear me god. I am waiting for an opportunity to show those people my ability! Please respect others for who they are and no one deserve to be look down on! You are a loser definitely!
@ Thursday, August 26, 2010