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My name is Shawn ~ I am born in the year of tiger ~ I am a Leo ~ I am a singing freak ~ I am a nice guy ~ I am currently undergoing Diploma in international business ~ I dislike backstabber ~ I dislike myself ~ I dislike stalker ~ I like clubbing ~ I like my things ~ I love my family ~ I love her
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Wednesday, April 21, 2010
/ Bad mood, low morale!
I am not in a good mood today or let say it this way, it’s just not my day today! I am upset or should I say low morale, very very low self esteem. Is my day gonna be spoilt just like that! I am not happy about it. I have no one to talk to! As I say it is just not my day. I can only trash things out on my blog! I am having my accounting exam today but I think I did it badly, just very badly. Someone spoil my freaking mood early in the morning. My brother scolded with me so many bad words, almost all the bad words he split it out on me. I am so upset! He is late for school, shouldn’t I nag at him? Is it wrong for me to do that! I am sick of his teacher calls. His teacher can call me almost every day just to complaint about him, his teacher can even ask me go down to his school for a meeting. Is this how I am supposed to be? Shouldn’t I have my own freedom as well? I have always cared for him trying to pay more attention on him. He thought I never support him nor I praise him. Actually I did but it is just that he didn’t realize it and assume that I didn’t! My mum just likes to spoil him, I don’t know why. I am just so pissed! I have no one to talk to, I am just sick and tired of all this things. How I wish I can get out of this freaking house, am tired of becoming the house man! Damn it! Why don’t teach him when he is young, why make him to become like this! If he show no interest than don’t study, why must he waste our money. I work so hard because of whom? Not because of me myself but for this family! But all treat me like dirt! My dad also, for no reason come and fight with him despite his condition. I just reach home with a freaking bad mood because I know I did very badly for my accounting. Accounting is simple, my lecturer already highlight the points that need to be study but I flung it! Thanks! I am not in a mood now, really! Not a friend that could even talk to. What’s happening? All my friends seem to fade when we get older. They all have their own commitment, own family. Who will bother about me! LOL
End here!
-Sometime I just feel like packing my bag and go, why do I have to do so much to make myself stressed-
PS: This is the reason why I don’t want to study now because I know it will definitely affect it and well I think it is affecting me now! I am like a shit now!
@ Wednesday, April 21, 2010