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My name is Shawn ~ I am born in the year of tiger ~ I am a Leo ~ I am a singing freak ~ I am a nice guy ~ I am currently undergoing Diploma in international business ~ I dislike backstabber ~ I dislike myself ~ I dislike stalker ~ I like clubbing ~ I like my things ~ I love my family ~ I love her
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Saturday, December 11, 2010
/ Sleepless night again.
My blog is so dead! :S I can't sleep! I am feeling so terrible right now. I have never feel so terrible before during my working life and I guess this is the first to make me feel that way. Look at the time now, I should be sleeping instead of wide awake! I am working later at 8am and yet I don't feel any sleepy at all. This is so torturing, like seriously! :[
God, please let me covert back to morning shift asap! Hopefully they can hire people by then! I am really really suffering! This is how hard I am earning for my money! :[ Sigh...
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@ Saturday, December 11, 2010
Monday, November 8, 2010
/ Holidays!
Back to blog! :D Well... I am now looking forward for my trip to Taiwan! I have been there once last year and I am going there again this year. Hehe. Hasn't been really shop around during our first trip, because that was the first time we visiting Taiwan! This time it gonna be different, cos it's the 2nd time! :D
I am targeting to go BKK and HKG too! I am gonna plan and save money for that after I come back from Taiwan next January! Perhaps I can save enough to go BKK during June/July next year and perhaps HKG for the year 2012! I am gonna save from now on. :)
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@ Monday, November 08, 2010
Thursday, October 21, 2010
/ Life suck!
At this moment of time, my life suck! It seem like I am getting to the end point of my life. My life span is getting nearer, I feel like dying soon. What can I do? Can someone please enlighten me? Sigh... :[ My life is fragile, it could be broken anytime! I don't have the energy to carry on leading the family. I wanted to give up! If can, I wish to go to a faraway country that no one knows me and spend my whole peaceful life there. That could be better, I might even see a future there. Instead of staying in Singapore and make myself feel more miserable! Life is shit to me. I am too tired to continue! It will be best if i can die peacefully tomorrow. I seriously am too tired with it. How long I can hold on! Perhaps leaving this house is a good choice for me. Because it never makes me happy! :[
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@ Thursday, October 21, 2010
Monday, October 18, 2010
/ Where's all my supporters?
My blog look so dead. :[ I have no more visitors! Sigh...
:[ x 1000 *sob sob*
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@ Monday, October 18, 2010
Saturday, September 4, 2010
/ Short post.
Reach home a moment ago, came in for a short post before I go to sleep. KTV session with Melody, Stephanie and Simon today was great! Definitely we need to meet up more often for KTV session or maybe dinner. Anyway, farewell to Melody and all the best to you for your future endeavor! I hope the job you are hopping on suit you, and if you happen to visit my blog again, please tag me. Also, just to let you know, you will be missed by me! Hah. ;)
Well, okay. To be truthful, something sudden shocks me and I am totally speechless! I am just shock to hear something that happen very suddenly once I step in to the office today. But anyway I am happy for you too, good luck and work hard! Hehe. Apparently, you guys know what is it right? Hah. Oh well, one bad news too. I am back to night shift already, my goodness! It jus all happen to suddenly larh, but well is okay, at least I am gonna had my long week off next week. Will be back to work only on Saturday. Any outing, please count me in. Thanks! Okay, end here. Is getting late and I am going to bed soon, need to work tomorrow morning! Okay, see you guys in dreamland now.
@ Saturday, September 04, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
/ It's not a crime, definitely!
Hello once again to the person I have spoken to yesterday, It is not entirely your fault as I can say. I didn’t even tell you that I fail my entire module, and it was you who is the one who assume it! Your impression to me shows that you are looking down on me and it was really not a good sign. Now you even show me that you are not interested to befriend with such a useless person like me? I did all the stuff because of you, all I want is to make you change your perception on me. I dare to ask you one question, in your heart, did you ever treat me as a friend before? Look, like that time. I only comment on Peifen’s blog and you also want to interfere! I feel that whatever I do or whatever I say, it just won’t satisfy you, am I right to say that?! It was you who make me feel that way. I say you fail because you are trying to avoid the fact that you are actually just trying to control people life and you just can’t accept the fact that you are not perfect! And apprently, you can’t say that I am childish at this age, this is only my perception on you! Let me tell you straight once again! I am not childish, is only that you don’t know me well enough! Shame on you to say that you treat me as a friend but you yourself don’t even know your friends well! If I am the only one who says you have some attitude problem, I admit it! But now it wasn’t me alone who say that, it was from some others people feedback as well! If you can’t take feedback and you are still going to think that you are perfect, go ahead! There are a lot of things that I can dig out and shoot at you, I bet you will have nothing to say! Come on, grow up! Everyone got their own life, own perception. Is not you who can control it.
Accept the facts and come back to the reality girl!
@ Sunday, August 29, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
/ Pethetic life
I found that nowadays I am very sensitive for something that does with money! I am not like before, where I find money is not the main concern to me. But now, no matter how much I earn per month, it is never enough! Unlike before, I earn less but I don’t feel any uneasy/ I don’t feel anything missing. Well, everything is different now. I need money now, I need it so desperately. Last time my whole family is working except for my brother that’s still studying, we are not short of money. Now, my dad is sick, he got stroke 2 years back and now half of his body is not functioning well. He can’t walk, can’t move on his right side and he needs a domestic helper to help him on whatever he does. Now, at least he is still okay, at least he can visit the toilet by himself without any support. Still we need a helper to look after him at home. My mum is sick as well, her illness came back after decade and yet she is still working so hard to support the family. Me as the eldest child of the family, seeing my mum working so hard to support the family, I think I ought to do something to help her support the family as well. I don’t understand, just don’t understand. Why some people cannot understand my situation now. They are just those people with no burden and yet free to do whatever they like. They just couldn’t understand the situation I am in now! I work so hard for what? I don’t get much back even though I am earning more then maybe you earned! No matter how much I earn, I guess it’s just not enough. Pay day for people like you may be happy but not for me, once it reach pay day, my worries start to come. How can I overcome it? I need to pay for my domestic helper and some household stuff. Can anyone understand me? LOL. Bear this is mind! Don’t keep going against me because I don’t study or I don’t intend to study. I am not like you who have the money to complete your degree! I am not that much fortunate like you, so treasure what you have now! Sigh… Who is that person who asks me to study in mdis and cause me so much trouble now! That school sucks okay, make my life more miserable! You know who you are! Worst is after I enrolled into that school, you tel me that “yeah, the management is kinda suck but I still can study till I completed my degree! Look, you is you not me! Your course and my course are different and we are not in the same course anyway! Your coordinate maybe be good but not mine alright! Also, you thought you are perfect? My foot! You are not any perfect, you are just like us, the normal people okay! Look how you look at people, please be more mercy! You suck!
Sometime I am rather disappointed, life just seems to be so pathetic to me! I just can’t stop working, can’t stop! If I stop I can’t imagine how pathetic I am going to be! Save me if you hear me god. I am waiting for an opportunity to show those people my ability! Please respect others for who they are and no one deserve to be look down on! You are a loser definitely!
@ Thursday, August 26, 2010